Not nearly enough time

Pastor has scheduled next Tuesday (1 Dec) to come to our house to hold a short memorial for Faith. It really means a lot to me that pastor is willing to do that. It means a lot to me when people refer to Faith by her name, instead of labeling her as "the termination" or "the baby".

This memorial holds really great significance for me. It means people around me acknowledge that I had a daughter. I know some people see us as still parents of 1 kid. I don't. Faith left a very big impression in my life, albeit a short 21 weeks. To a mother, it is more than enough to acknowledge the presence of her children, but yet not nearly enough to shower them with love. On hindsight, I'm also not sure how this memorial will impact me emotionally. I felt like I've moved on a little - will this event pull me back down emotionally again?

I miss Faith. Her little kicks - I guess it's just that time of the night (she used to kick a lot at this hour). The only regret I have now is that I only spent 4 days of quality time with her. Not nearly enough for me to shower my love for my baby girl.