3 weeks to the 24th

It's the month of March. The month that I dread, that I've been trying so hard (but impossible) to avoid. I've been getting really crampy lately, very bad cramps that are intermittent - like contractions. Yesterday they were so bad I could hardly stand up straight. I struggled to bring my son to his grandmother's place, and I struggled to work. At first I thought it could be due to my period getting close, but then it's never been like that the last 4 months, just only recently.

Almost 4 months now. Last week while sharing with close friends on my fears for this month, the tears couldn't stop rolling down. I honestly do not know how my day will go on the 24th. I'm just thankful that I work, so at least a large part of the day would have been immersed in meeting deadlines.